Day 13 of 30

Someone you wish could forgive you.....

I wish he could forgive me for everything I did to him.
I was really mean and I did many hurtful things to him. I know to this day he still remember everything. I don’t have any excuses for what I did. One day when I see him again I will apologize because he didn’t deserve what I did.

Day 12 of 30

The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain.....

This is the person I HATE the most!!!!lets call her Mrs.N. I can see her burning and I will put more gas..lol...without going in to details…. All I can say is that even thought of what she did to me, I don’t wish her bad because KARMA is a BIGGER bitch than I can be and she will never be happy for the stuff she have done no only to me but other people. I can’t see how someone can be so evil and hurt people like she does. She don’t love herself she settles for less...But like I say KARMA will come and will take care of her ass sooner than later ;0)!!!!
As she has planted, so does she harvest; such is the field of karma. ~Sri Guru Granth Sahib


Ps
yes she does look like a rat..lmao
Whatever we do lays a seed in our deepest consciousness, and one day that seed will grow. ~Sakyong Mipham

Day 11 of 30

A Deceased person you wish you could talk to.......



Well this was my friend Rocio. She die 6yrs ago. I wish I could talk to her and tell her everything I wrote the night before she die and she didn’t got to read it. We were really good friend and for a stupid reason(a man) we got mad and stop talking to each other 2 yrs past and we still didn’t talk. But one day I wake up thinking about her I just found out she was pregnant from the same guy we stop talking and I was missing her and I didn’t care no more about the guy. So all day I fight my pride not to write her but around 10pm I gave up and I wrote her an email on myspace. On that email I told her that I forgive her for what she did to me but I also want it her to forgive me and I told her how much I miss her and how much I wish everything was the same. The email was long and I wrote what I hold for 2yrs. I call our mutual friend ebony and read the email to her. She was happy bc finally her two best friend were going to be friends again. But sadly that night she had a motorcycle accident and she die the next morning at 5am. She never got to read my letter and she die thinking I hate it her and she never got to know how much I love her and how much I was missing her.

Quote of the Day!!!!

I DONT FORGIVE PEOPLE BECAUSE IM WEAK...I FORGIVE THEM BECAUSE IM STRONG ENOUGH TO KNOW PEOPLE MAKE MISTAKES!!!!!!

Day 10 of 30

Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to.....

My BEST FRIEND Arianna. We have been BFF for the longest. We used to talk or see each other almost every day. But since I move to Japan and she begins collage it has been hard to get in touch with each other. Our schedule conflicts 99% of the time lol... But I know that no matter what we can count with each other and we will always be BFF I Miss Her so MUCH!!!!!

My Saying of the Day!!!

Behind every joke i say and every laugh you hear i still hold back alot of tears......Me!!!!

Day 9 of 30

Someone you wish you could meet....



Jennifer Lopez bc she is a beautiful and successful latina and i wish i had her body lol

Great Song to Workout!!!!

I Workout to this song why well...

1st is long enough that if I play it 2 times I know I have 15 minutes left!!!lol
2nd bc it motivates me to look good I think about how my ex always had someone and now im happy looking good and he is lonely lmao I know it doesnt make sences to u but it make sence to me lmao

Justin Timberlake - What Goes Around...Comes Around

My new Song

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

I love love this song!!! Im just speechless. It tell my story ;0) (not the hiting part lol)

Day 8 of 30

Your favorite internet friend....

This was hard so I cant pick one bc I actually have two so here they are:

First is Jessica from Ramdom Ratings We met in High School in Marine Biology lol. We weren’t friends like that we only talk in class but somehow we reconnect through Facebook(lol) (I told u! You can find anyone in FB lol)and I began to read her blog and made my own. She was my 1st follower for a long time lol thank Jess!!!! ;0) I hope one day I can go back home and go lunch or get to see her again.




This is Josafat I meet him through a friend of mine I have never see him in person he live in Mexico but we connected through Facebook lol and we stay friend we talk a lot and he is a nice guy and I cant wait to go to Mexico and meet him. He can be my ONLINE BFF lol!!!!

Day 7 of 30

Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush....



LMAO wow really!!! it was easy who I wanted to put for this but really hard lmao memories start it to flow and thoughts went everywhere hmmmmm....This is my ex boyfriend let’s call him Resto..lol… I didnt have a pict of him so I went to Facebook the place where u find anyone lol and guess what I found him this is the only pict I can see and Im not going to request him HECK NO lmao..Well a little about our story. We date it in High School. On his senior yr my sophomore yr. After he graduated that summer I went to Puerto Rico and he was leaving for boot camp so he find out I was in Puerto Rico and he went there and visit me and ask me to take him back in front of the beach. So we were on and off for a minute and told me he wanted to marry me lots of time but he was always with me and someone else lol yeah big player. So one day he call me and told me he was coming back from Iraq and he had change and wanted to try again and he wanted to marry me I was already with who is now my hubby...lol funny ah??? He meant a lot to me but he was a big player....Sometimes I think what if??lol

Day 6 of 30

A stranger....

Well I took this pict like 4 months ago and I dont know her but she was taking 2 long and everyone were mad lol so she a STRANGER lol

Day 5 of 30

Your dreams....
I have lots of them thats the only thing keep someone going. Remember Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.

These are some of MINE!!!!!

1. I want her body. She is beautiful inside and out. I love her lol



2. I want to finish school. Im going to school for Psychology but Im doing double major Spychology and Spanish bc I will love to teach Spanish in High School





3. lol Yes I want 1 more baby ;0)



4. I want a house. A beach House will be nice!!!!



5. I want to go around the World! See more places Im not done yet lol



6. I want my family together!!!



BUT MOST OF ALL I WANT TO BE.......



HAPPY!!!!!!

Remember "Dreams are like stars...you may never touch them, but if you follow them they will lead you to your destiny.”

Day 4 of 30

My Siblings

Well I have one brother and one sister. My brother and I we have the same dad and mom. My sister we have the same mom but not the same dad. I have never consider her my half sister even thought we dont get along...lol...My brother and I we have the same Birth Day I was born on June 19 1985 and he was born on June 19 1986 yes my dad and my mom did good lol...My sister is 20 yr old. My brother is in the Air Forces and right now he is in Las Vegas. My sister she still in Puerto Rico. My brother have a little girl she is 2 and my sister have a little boy he is 1. Last time we were all together was for my daughters 2nd bday. I cant wait for us to be together again. I love them and miss them. :0(


My Brother Luis




My sister Alexandra

I Love.....

That I used to hate peanut butter until I try this one... This is real peanut butter mmmmm



That my peanut butter taste better with this bagels




That I found this hotdogs that are real meat low in calories sodium ect...love it love it!!!! and just for $1.00 each pack lol



That I can play raquetball and that can be my cardio...lol...



That More SOONER than LATER I will look like this... lol

So this is what is going on

I promise I was going to say what my secret was and what I was working for. So let me star by saying that I gained lots of weight when I went to visit my husband in Greece from 130 i went to 165 yes 35lbs on just 3months that was 10lb at months crazy. So when I came home nothing fit and I was sad and depress hubby came back like 2 months later and left again but this time to Cuba well then I decide to joined the Gold's Gym and I begin to do spinning wow in just 2 months i lost 22lb so yes I was 143 when my hubby got back home from Cuba. But then we were coming to Japan so we went everywhere to say bye to his family and mine so I jump to 150 yeah. Then we got here to Japan and I eat my life away I was sad 1.bc I was missing home and felt lonely lots of time and 2. bc my husband and I we were having problems since it was almost 2yrs since we live together so we weren’t used to and we step on each other’s toe. So I gained lots of weight I went to 173 that’s a lot for me bc I’m just 5'3 and I weight 170 the day I went in labor. So In January 2010 I joined the gym but I guess I can say I wasn’t serious I did all this classes but I only lost 10lb and gained the pounds again and again. But everything change in April when I decide to take a boot camp class I love it and I became friend with the instructor she is built she used to do Figure and was training for a bodybuilder competition. On May I went to congratulate her bc, I she won her last figure competition and she approached me with the idea if I wanted to compete for a Figure competition in October. I laugh bc I was overweight and I need it to lose some weight she say she would train me for FREE and make me have the best body of my life. Well I thought about and after 2 weeks of her asking me I say YES. So In June 20 I start it my lost weight journey and I have lost 15lb since June 2010. It has been hard and crazy. I eat really clean no salt no fat nothing bad and I work out super hard. I’m really nervous bc is August and I’m not 100% ready I’m like 55% ready I still have to lose at least 10 more pounds but I want 20 more and I have to do it soon October is around the CORNER!!!. I really want to compete on this Figure competition I’m really excited!!! Let see how it goes wish me LUCK bc I really need it!!!! I want one of those trophies at my house...lol....and for those who doesn’t know what a Figure Competition is: is a class of physique-exhibition events for women; while bearing a close resemblance to female bodybuilding, it emphasizes muscle tone over muscle size. These competitions are frequently held as part of the same events as bodybuilding contests. In other words I just have to be tone I don’t have to have big muscle. Here is a picture and a video ENJOY!!!!







An example of my daily routine:

Morning: Breakfast: Egg withes, with 1 lice of white cheese and 1 mini wheat beagle or 1 piece of wheat bread. Or I made a shake with papaya or cantaloupe, a little milk, splenda and little of cinnamon

Snack: Green Apple, any fruit but preferable green fruit if is before I go lift weight I eat a mini wheat beagle with real peanut butter

Lunch: If I already came from lifting weights I drink a protein drink if not a eat a tuna with salad, or a salad with no dressing... no mayo
Snack same as before

Dinner: Chicken, or Fish no salt I just Mrs. Dash for flavor and brown rice

When I eat I dinner I have 1 cup of crystal light for everything else WATER WATER WATER

Work out:
45 minute intense cardio in the morning

25 minute intense cardio right before lifting

Lifting weights

45 minutes intense cardio after

Abs 45 minutes of just abs

well some time is don’t do the 25 minutes bc I have been going to the gym early in the morning since is hard for me to go at night so I do 45 go lift and the 45 and sometimes I come back at night when everyone is sleeping and do 30m
I know u thinking I should have lost more since this work out yes but I’m lifting weight so that mean I gain muscle so I don’t go by my weight if not the percent of fat and muscle.
;0)

Day 3 of 30

My Parents!!!!



this is my daddy!!!


this is my mommy!!!

sadly you not going to see a pict of just them 2 bc they are divorces and they dont like eachother that much. they fake it when we are around lol

Day 2 of 30

MY CRUSH....well since Im marry who can be my crush lol but my latest crush is YEAH you got it Gerard Butler!!! He is so SEXY!!!! (this is going to get hard)

Day 1 of 30

(So yes I'm going to do it wish me luck bc is going to be tough)
DAY 1 of 30

My Best Friend



(this is my aunt. I can tell anything to this woman and she will no take side if not she will lisent and give me the best advices she know everything about me ;0) i love her so much)

What I have learn!!! (todays quote)

In the end, we only regret the chances we didn't take, the relationships we were afraid to have, & the decisions we took too long to make. ;0)

30 Day Challenge

Got this great idea from the one and only Jessica

Every day, put a picture up of the next thing on the list.
Feel free to copy the list and start your own!

Here's the list:

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — Your house

Day 21 — Your friends that are sister/brothers

Day 22 — Someone you wish you had tried harder for

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — Someone you wish you could forget

Day 26 — Your favorite cousin

Day 27 — The friendliest person you've met only once

Day 28 — Someone you want to reconnect with

Day 29 — Your neighbor

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Let see if i realy do it bc some of these days are 2 personal or hard for me lol

What is a person limit?

I seat down here and listen to her and she told me how much she loves him and what he means to her. But with tears in her eyes she tells me everything he has done to her. I listen in silence with nothing to say. She began telling me how she fall in love with him, how sweet he was and how he make her feel. She when on and on in all his good quality and I felt for a moment that she was making excuses so she can cover her pain and the hurt. After our conversation it was nothing I could say because she knew the answer but she was scare to accept. That he wasn’t good anymore that he have hurt her so much. That not only verbal abuse her; he was physically hurting her. She can’t understand why she has let him go so far. But I did answer her; you have let him walk all over you and done nothing, he know that no matter what he do to you, you will stay there and take it. He knows what to say to hurt you because at the end he doesn’t believe in him and he knows that you are too much for him and he need to feel bigger than you so that’s what he do. But I can believe she look straight in my eye and say “BUT I LOVE HIM” are you serious? These man calls you name, hit you for no reason, push you around, take your plate out of your hand and tell you; you would eat shit and tell you he would trough your food in the trash and you still love him? And you still making excuses? What is a person limit? When is enough? When is that point when you know is not loved anymore? When you know you have enough? If this was me would I walk out of the relationship? Or would I stay and take it all for love? This is love or what? I wish she have the strength to walk out and keep moving she is great and she can find someone better than him!!!
A MAN TRASH IS SOMEONE ELSE’S TREASURE!!!!!

The Toughest Job In the Military!!!!!!

So let me start like this I am a military wife and yes it is the "TOUGHEST" job in the military. Yes if you have never been in this situation you really don't know what it is like. We are the "volunteer workers" of this world call THE MILITARY. All the time, we as a spouse do things that go unnoticed. Just because we didn’t sign the paperwork to be in the military we are the ones that are overlooked and underappreciated. Understand that we are the backbone of these guys.Yes, the military doesn't think about our feelings or our children's feelings. At the end we are the forgotten ones. But I still love and respect the sacrifices that not only my husband but all of them make every day.

At the same time I knew what I was getting myself in to when I marry him. I knew he was going to be deployed sooner than later. I knew he was going to be in a ship for a long period of time. I knew that, most likely he was going to miss lots of b-days, lots of holidays, anniversary, even maybe going to the doctor with me for a sonogram or just because I was sick, even worst the birth of his daughter, her first step, words and plenty more. I knew that he wasn’t going to be present all the time that I need it him. It was many nights that I need it him to hold my hand or give me a kiss and a hug or just to hold me and he wasn’t there. Not even a call or email every day because he wasn’t in a place that was able to talk or email me. He was gone in two different unaccompanied deployment of total of 2yrs and of those 2 yrs I only saw him maybe 4 months if that. Even thought he wasn’t in a war zone it was the hardest time of my life I saw my daughter cry herself to sleep because she miss her daddy and many thing that I did or happened and he wasn’t there for me. This is not only my story this is the story of many military wife that have gone through this and more.
But since I move to Japan and I’m now in this military world because this is my first time sharing with military spouses all the time and having military friends. I ask myself this; why seat here and complain how bad is the military? How much your husband is on the way and you can’t see him as much as you will like? How sick you are and he is not here. How much stress he has and his job is taking time from you. Come on!!! Yes I know is hard, I know this because I spend many nights crying wishing he was next to me. I spend many times in the hospital wishing he was the one with me, but I didn’t seat and complain about how miserable my life without my husband was. Why complain? And have negative thoughts when at least your husband is not in war zone. You know he will be back soon, you can talk to him even if is once a week, email him even if he respond 2 weeks later you are station with him you have him. They are many wives that every night goes to sleep praying not to receive a call or a visit the next day. They are many wife that right now are burring there husband. Why complain and stress yourself out for something that you knew and are not as bad as you see it or think they are. Why stress yourself for something that no matter how stress you are is not going to change unless he gets out of the military, Right?(and he still have to serve the yrs he sign for) Be Thankful! Find the good in every situation. Think positive. Remember the law of attraction; we are like magnets, we attract what we think. Whatever is going on in our mind is what we attract and not only have we attracted we also BECOME WHAT WE ATTRACT. Life is short, be great full and utilizes that time to get to know you, get to know the places where you are station if is a new places and enjoy. Concentrate a little more on you and your children. Because at the end like my best friend say; “THE NAVY IS MY HUSBAND’S MISTRESS AND SOMETIME THAT BITCH GET ALL THE ATTETION!!”

Just a Quote!!!

‎"A BROKENHEART CAN HURT, BUT ITS THE MEMORIES THAT SLOWLY & SILENTLY KILL YOU"